What do you think about my song ?

Well,I write songs for a long time and I decided to share it with you. This is not my the best song but I couldn't find a different song : / Tell me what do you think : )

'Infidelity'

Diaries from my complicated life
Waiting for the end
But it keeps on hurtin' somebody
The watchful calm in my voice
Because it seems that he not right
Loves my companyI'm making him sad
When I'm gone again
But I can't be true to him
I don't wanna kill him inside
Because of my infidelity
Maybe he knows that I am happy
With another guy
And it takes away his life

ch.:
I don't wanna make him cryin'
I don't wanna see him dyin'
I'm not gonna be the reason
He's lying underground
Not because of me
I really don't wanna be a killer

I recognize it everyday
That he realize why
Im going out so late
A huge liar
Didn't have to tell what I'm doing outta home
I am sure he knows where I'm spending nights
And who is that mysterious man
Who calls me every afternoon
I am so obscene in relations with him
He believed me and deceived him repeatedly
I broke every heart
He won't forgive me if he'll check it out
I avoid questions
But it can't going so this way

ch 1x

I love his sincerity and trust
I let them both down
I'm standing between death and life
I think as well I might take a gun
And put it to my heart
Get it over with
Not to see them dyin' inside
Because of my immature indecision
It's so unforgivable
And I am a traitor
They exposed me there
Uncovered my lies
They've got a predominance

ch 2x

I didn't said that some of verses are changed .
I also wrote 'No Revenge' , 'Rehab' etc.